Happy Mother's Day - the first entry.

I have been wanting to journal about this thrilling and queezy roller coaster ride and share it with friends and family for awhile.  We have our proverbial seat belts strapped on now and the grip bars are locked in, ready to hold on through the unpredictable turns, climbs and drops.  
Ever since I became a big sister at the age of 6 1/2, I saw my life being about children.  I no doubt was gonna have a few, preferably through adoption, maybe write a series of children's books, lead a neighborhood after school program, start a nonprofit for orphans abroad...
Weirdly, the decisions I made in life didn't make becoming a mom easy, from living in a small town of Eureka (dating was near impossible) from graduation until my mid thirties to dating guys that didn't have the desire to have any or anymore kids. I found myself getting 'geriatric' in obstetric terms and seeing my college friends one by one getting pregnant at the pivotal age of 35.  It kinda sucked but I was distracted with opportunites to grow up if that makes sense.
Fast forward to now: I am sooo grateful for life's opportunities.  I love my practice that I almost treat like it's my kid.  I love my husband whose daughter Mayumi has in many ways become my own and hopefully will add some entries to this blog.  :)
I loved learning how to be a stronger and happier person and when I took a moment to look at how wonderful my life was I told myself I didn't need anything more.  But because I have so much to be grateful for, there was a nudge inside of me to ask myself and my family if we could have a baby now.  The answers were 'yes' and it couldn't feel more right.